Honesty vs Integrity?

Wow! Deep!

This is gonna be on simmer, back burner, crockpot stuff!

(have a lot of back burners and crockpots ya’ll!

The Holy Spirit actually helps take some off the back! By revealing the solution! He is so handsome 😍! 😀

See, the problem here is the interpretation of this moral code.

The good thing is, with Christians i can say, “Who has given their heart to Yeshua?”

(this exact wording will tell me much (especially those not prepped to answer this)

Observation time! 😀

i especially like this one:

For there are those who play on stage when they believe someone could be watching!

For it pains me to watch people fawn all over a person in a wheelchair, young middle school to high schoolers do this.

To get brownie points.

Once i even saw a person, a child in a wheelchair with ‘that attitude’.

And i am glad that is easy to spot.

More devious jezzy’s & passives/victims, uncloying, can be difficult, yet i am praying about this now!

Before i’m in the position to freely pick!

Its like praying it into existence, like i can think of every contingency!

i am praying about that too. My arrogancy, not being a backseat driver! 😀

For i was thinking outloud, and i asked, ” What do you call it?”

For i have gotten to the point of asking for $!

His response? Well after like the 3rd, 4th or 5th thing about the pitfalls of the rich…

Which i already know, i am being squeezed though, more than usual, anxiety, spiritual attacky- ya know? 🙂 (for i am high on the HS right now, xcuse me! :-D) Hallelujah! 😀

I of course contemplate what i really want!

Things $ cannot buy.

Like faithfulness and honesty.

and i don’t mean an honest psycho either!

What do you call that?


ok, integrity.

Fine. But i mean like Fort Knox, Swiss Bank integrity (former symbols of security & faithfulness to their customers!)

(anytime something becomes a well known, all over the papers, fiction novels, movie & film thing, its integrity is gone!)

There is Holy Spirit integrity! 😀

After all this, i had to look up the definition of integrity and i am so glad i did!

For under images i found Honesty vs Integrity!

For the two being different never really occurred to me, but i knew honesty wasn’t sufficient.

This brainstorming has led to me asking, “Who has Holy Spirit integrity?”

Good essay question: What is Holy Spirit integrity? 😀


I Cut Netflix!

<clutching my heart & gasping for air!>

Done this before and i didn’t do well!

i am addicted to movies!

Not TV!


This time i pledge to replace the movie desire, everytime it comes up with… with?


Something i neglect often,

my artistic self.

Pinterest will be my new Netflix! 🙂

(trading one addiction for another? YES! Like Methadone off of Heroin!)

The withdrawls are real!

Thank goodness i do not have a digital converter or any tv subscription service!

And there are other free ways for me to watch a movie or tv. Of which i will strive to limit to eating times & late…ok screw that!

For i know better than to attempt two changes at the same time!

Breathe! In Christ, Breathe Out!

(panic attack again (anxiety/stress)

For this meme keeps bothering me:

i’ve posted this quote before.

Just this meme/quote has me seeing how much i’m still striving to please others!

From housekeeping to…

Ok, just the housekeeping for now.

For i have also ran across this:

Being accused of procrastination really hurts.

Yet, it is not procrastination or rather, “What is behind the fear?”

It is all the things i wasn’t ‘allowed’ to do!

Clutter is frustration!

Hence stress, depression & anxiety!

I am still living with the restrictions of my childhood!

For i’ve been re-thinking housekeeping lately.

I’m like, ‘Why don’t i apply my innovation (that i have in business ideas (artistic ones too)) to housekeeping?’

Adding that these ideas may become profitable in themselves as a motivator.

For there is waaay too much anxiety, stress and depression around my financial situation!

i tell myself to hand it over to Yeshua and i find it so hard to do!

i hand over the momentary anxiety & stress of my finances to Yeshua, the Holy Spirit.

Yet, i’m on my hands and knees in pain!

This pain i find difficult to remove.

To let go of. To scoop up and hand over!

i don’t even want to touch it!

i can’t!

For i am too busy reacting to this festering, septic, gangrene wound spreading in my abdomen!

i stagger with these thoughts, while the Holy Spirit reminds me of another time i felt this way.

How long it took for it to go away, the stages of it.

This ‘poor mentality’, this life, this mindset, is akin to the wounds of sexual abuse.

At least for me.

Similar difficulty of letting go.

Letting go of the anger is step one.

By admitting i have it, concerning my income, has me reeling, at the depths of it, the implications.

The key is allowing onself to feel the rage, without judging it…the thoughts and feelings that go with it.

For i am also angry with myself.

I am facing all of my anger about this.

To not be afraid of acting in this anger?

Is a testimony to the inner workings of Christ, within me.

(told ya tantrum time would come in handy!) 😀

In/with Christ, Yeshua, i have a safe place.

A place where i can scream, rage and purge despair.

For these things kill me, make me sick, are the root to much of my dis-ease-s.

Rage and despair are the roots to many diseases.

Of humanity.

In Christ, i can release these things, i remind myself. He gently reminds me, touches me.

Makes me sane.

This is why it is vital that we get our relationship with Christ fixed first!

Abandon everything!

Sacrifice all things, for 5 min of …

Purging with Christ.

Or just Breathe In Yeshua, Breathe Out.

For parts of me have grown cold and still with all this talk…

Me taking my own advice (of Breathing in Christ) made me see that.

Fear so deep, one forgets to breathe, like bugs do, like rodents do…play dead, stop moving.

Or because the gangrene hurts my ribs.

All this visualization, helps me get my hands on this rage.

No longer just angry, rage. Insane with it, better than depression, despair.

i can safely experience this due to Yeshua, hallelujah!

There are other steps.

Yet i must remain here, with me touching my rage.

For i need to see how deep it goes, i need to know why i am in this much pain, where it’s coming from, the root of it.

To allow the Holy Spirit to show me, because i don’t want to.

i’m scared to.

Yet these are feelings i have acquired B.C.

i remind myself, He touches me gently again.

Communicating without words.

For they would hurt too much.

TY Yeshua, ty Yeshua.


Will Elon Musk’s Candy Company Fail?


i say, “Go get them Elon!” 🙂

For See’s thinking their untouchable, NO business is ever untouchable!

For i will purposefully cater to Elon’s candy vs See’s just to prove this point!

Entirely too big for their britches (fat cats) i would enjoy bringing down!

Hopefully Elon will go through with it! 🙂 See it to the end, not lose interest in other words.

For this can be so much fun! 🙂

Lets raid the castle! 🙂

(the way Navy Seals would traverse that moat, is one good way!) 🙂

i almost wish it was me instead! Make See’s regret such a casual guantlet! 😀

Donations To The NRA Have Tripled Since Parkland Shooting


Crazy huh?

Not really, considering the fact that many of these ‘shooters’ are from middle class families, Caucasian.

The NRA must mount a defense right?

The ones who ‘have’ also have the guns that function properly.

(instead of the used & malfunctioning ones in the hood)

Plus, the ‘hood’ is getting their supply from somewhere.

No gang member manufactures weapons, bullets or even the drugs!

Someone is giving them access!

Illegally of course!

The problem is the mentality behind the weapon!

Plus they are scared of losing control, yet not enough pressure is being applied to those who do this!

Economically things are getting worse!

People take things like that out on others.

Racism, classim, is behind all of this.

Blue collars will be the first to lose their weapons because of this.

It won’t stop the killing though.

The problem is not guns or any weapon.

This is what happens when society allows hatred in any form to fester, unattended.

Things go BOOM eventually.

Always will.

There are many, many, things that will ‘replace’ the gun.

Yet who is dealing with the motives behind the killings?

No one?

Just recording the motives FBI, NSA, Homewhatever?

Also great smokescreen this is.

What i keep telling people all the time…

Hear it from Steve Harvey, maybe more folk will ‘listen’! 😀

People claim they want to see an Entrepreneur in the making, when it first started…

Which is a load of BS!

People want to see the ones that are popular!

The stories on the popular Entrepreneur’s!

AFTER! They have become popular!

Write your own damn story!

Like a pic portfolio, a scrapbook of all the things and ways you tried this and that! The people you met, etc!

Write your story like you are Elon Musk TODAY!

It’s what we call a ‘winning’ attitude!

Those with this attitude make it many more times than those who do not!

(Plus! Gonna tell you now! You gonna NEED to be your own publicist! Your own coach, your own motivation! Especially when things get rough, when and if despair hits ya!)

No one wants to actually follow someone through the shame, the ridicule, the laughed at moments!

(For some think ya whining? Just cause they follow an abusive pattern (keep it all inside!) doesn’t mean that is the way it should be done!)

I read up on successful folk, businesses, etc…, UNTIL! I keep reading and finding the same advice over and over and finally decided to just do it! (Nike not intended)…

Believe in yourself!

Believe in yourself!

Trust yourself!

You CAN do it!


Found out that me and the ‘successful’ ones i admire (like the author of Rich Dad, Poor Dad), that we have a lot in common, except they had more arrogance than me!

More narcissism!

They were more of an *sshole than me! 😀

They stuck to a routine/principles more than i!

In other words, i was/am too nice!? What?

Take what you will from it and discard the rest!

For when we strike that formula! (YES!)

Realized that the world is full of cowards…bullies on the internet! Is a great example!

Grammar nazi’s! And people who mock my grammar/spelling!

Tis why in video, spelling is NOT an issue! Neither is punctuation as much!


There though, the really polished ones make me sick! No matter what they are actually saying! The ‘sell’ for me is being real! (and i like charm despite it!) 🙂

and Steve Harvey is charming for sure, like most snakes are!

For the grin will stay till he gets where he wants!

Lord! May most of my smiles be real!

Not gonna kiss Trump’s behind (white man $$) to get there like Steve and Oprah!

i rather stay poor! For i do not want so called ‘riches’ without You! Holy Spirit!



To get it all without losing my principles! To be even closer to the Lord then (for i know i will need it more!)

I believe what You have shown me Lord!

For we will be there one day, in Yeshua’s holy name! Amen!


Successful People Explain Why a College Degree is USELESS

why it is useless today…

why people with degrees are NOT being hired!

Especially when the employer is someone who also got there WITHOUT a college degree?

College…todays education, trains you to work for someone else, they/it/ modern education does not teach you how to take what you learned (in the textbooks) and use it for yourself!

It has ALWAYS been this way!


It does not mean, do not go to college…it just means, ‘keep that in mind!’

Most of those who teach are those who didn’t want to, do not love it, did it for the ‘tenor’, the ‘stability, the known!

So many do not know how to teach and the administrators (plus ignorant parents) helped to run out anyone who could not be controlled!

So there are very few ‘good’ teachers left…

the same with lawyers and doctors…

a ‘good’ lawyer by the standards of Christ…how did such make it through law school and the board?

Let alone surviving in the courts!

Tis why my lawyer-ly skills come in handed with the Law of Love (Elohim) 🙂

Who would have ever guessed?

That i would need to CREATE a job for myself?

Yeah! That is what i could have told me, back in the day!

Create a job, for yourself!

Would’ve took care of a lot, in just a few words…

it is something i will/am saying to all of you!


What would it be like?

What would you be doing?

Envision it and then MAKE IT SO! :-d

(Star Trek joke!) 🙂

If you can see it, you can believe it…

you can then make it a reality!

Help yourself envision it!


Keep Hope Alive!

(a Jesse Jackson reference) 🙂

Keep Yeshua alive, in your heart!

In Yeshua’s holy name…

Amen. 😀