By Pastor Randy
In 2006 I went through a terrible, life-altering circumstance that left me wondering what I should do next.
I had accrued over $120,000 in hospital debt. I was in shock. I had no idea how I would get through it.
Anxious and uncertain, I knelt in my bedroom and prayed for direction and wisdom.
God’s wisdom prevailed as He first led me to Philippians 4:19 which says,
“And the same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.”
That day I (was) determined to walk in God’s wisdom.
I went to the hospital and talked to the administrator.
Divinely, that person forgave my debt and miraculously assisted me with my additional expenses.
Thank You Lord! For this…because i admit i grew cold, just thinking of going to the Administrator! (rage i figure, fear?)
Praying about it, then moving forward, on it, in it-key here is, this person had a directive, from the Holy Spirit, in that Bible Verse coming up.
Bear in mind, that it may not be a Bible verse for you, yet clearly it may be, a thought, an inspiration, that did not occur to you before.
i always assumed these things, these thoughts, inspirations, were coming from me, B.C.
Especially since i was losing coherent thought (only noticed in the past year or 2, the Holy Spirit shows me, a lot longer than that), and my preliminary study of the Gifts (Craftmanship mainly, in the Bible)…
Has led me to understand that not only i, humanity itself (especially Western Society), believes our thoughts, our inspiration, comes from our own selves, only!
My mind, my intelligence, the quickness of it, my memory, failed, and kept failing.
i finally started to acknowledge something was going on, that i knew not.
i spoke, “Lord, only You know what is going on, i do not. i need Your help, You are the only one who can help me, who can heal me.”
i imagined touching His face, while i said it too.
Not intentional imagination, not anymore.
i believe because i use to purposely imagine touching Yeshua, that it happens naturally now, almost as much as i would with a person, physically in front of me. (Almost)
i say this because one of my major love languages is touch.
During disciple training, i did a speech, pointing out how Elohim, Yeshua, does all 5 Love Languages.
He is our Father. My Mother, My Husband, My Best Friend…my Everything.
(Learn to make this so true! In your heart, in your spirit, from shouting to a whisper & back again, for love cannot hide itself.) 😀
And He loves even those who hate Him. He will make your enemies bow down, to Him, make them do what He wants, when it comes to those He dearly loves.
We become such a close, intimate, lover, when we spend close, intimate time with Him! 😀
He is Our Provider, Our Shepherd, ie: Husband.
For males as well as females.
All of humanity is searching for Him, and the majority know it not.
i asked to be completely satisfied in the Lord.
i asked Him!
To be disatisfied, frustrated, depressed, felt like dishonor.
i ask for help with my unbelief.
These things are worth more than gold & silver, a car, a house, a spouse, friends, children even.
My health, my frame of mind, my peace is dependent on My Everything. ❤💗
The Holy Spirit.💘
Our everything. 💕
i am paying attention to where He isn’t my Everything.
i am noticing how much fear occupied my life.
It is scary & i wonder how i lived so long, without Him.
Then i remember i didn’t, i wasn’t living, i was surviving!
And that lifeboat was sinking!
Never occurred to me to be so bold after praying. Not like this.
So i am praying for help in this area.
For i desire feeedom!
After a couple of years of praying, fasting on Hallow’s Eve, against the Spirit of Fear (fear is the motivation behind all demonic activity, for in His Presence there is none.
Adam & Eve never experienced fear, until that day.
Eating from the tree of fear, we did, we do! (wow)
Choose a different tree! Different fruit!
A tree without fear. Fruit without fear in it!
Yeshua Provides! 😀
(gonna stop & delve into this revelation!)
In Yeshua’s holy name, amen! 😀